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Tiny’s voice lives up to her name, a soft purl
that occasionally defies itself, exploding into hysterical
laughter as her words carry her from thought to thought,
unfolding her stories and the soul of her work. Her
work could also be called her life: As someone who’s
lived through weighty situations most would fold under,
she’s been learning how to survive and help others
survive since she was 11, when her mother Dee lost her
job and Tiny became the backbone of her family unit.
Tiny, a.k.a. Lisa Gray-Garcia, is the “co-mama”
of POOR Magazine, a glossy lit mag with a twist:
It is by and about poor people and their struggles.
The other co-mama was Dee, her mother, who passed away
last year. Working out of the Bay Area as an activist-artist-author-publisher,
Tiny is wearing many hats these days.
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Activist-artist-author-publisher
Lisa Gray-Garcia, a.k.a. Tiny, with her son. At
age 11, Tiny held her family together after her
mother lost her job. |
She also swears like a sailor, which puts me instantly
at ease, remembering my own father’s liberal use
of the f-word provided my mother wasn’t around.
Some things need expletives; her stories practically
mandate them. “In San Fran[cisco], 40 percent
of the people in homeless shelters are 60-70 years old,”
she says, before responding to her own data with a scream:
“What the fuck are they doing in homeless shelters?”
“If you educate people on this shit, things
would change, but people don’t think about it
because they’ve been mindfucked.”
In her first book, Criminal of Poverty: Growing
Up Homeless in America (City Lights, 2007), Tiny
explores the potential causes of said fuckery while
interweaving the tales of three generations of poor
women: herself, her mother, and her grandmother. Whereas
grandmother Helen Jo and mother Dee (nee Mary Jo) were
both fostered in practically parentless situations with
no family cohesion, Tiny grew up by her mother’s
side, and they became a pair rarely separated. Tiny
never stepped out on supporting her mother, even though
it meant missing high school, a bittersweet reality
for her. She writes about being 12 and hearing children
playing after the last school bell:
“Each shrill, excited thread of their voices
shattered the blank stillness with a momentary drop
of life in a sea of empty air. Oh how I longed to be
them for even a second, to have friends, to worry about
my clothes, homework, boys.”
School or not, she’s still a scholar. Everyone
who has lived through poverty and come out alive is
a scholar, or an expert, according to Tiny. “What
even is a scholar, and who defines that?” she
wonders. “Usually people with a formal education
from a formal institution of learning who have had very
little if any direct experience with some of the issues
that they’re actually studying.” Referring
to people who live through diabolical circumstances
in their everyday lives as scholars as opposed to just
homeless or low-income people is a way to buck the language
of oppression. “It’s a political statement
— we have solutions but nobody listens to us.”
The “Don Quixote-style” scholarship in
her book is a headlong tackling of North American cultural
windmills — specifically what she sees as the
myth of independence that’s been perpetrated on
us. You know: Go to school, get a job, get a house,
start a new family from scratch, or else. “All
of these notions, like if you don’t leave the
house you’re a bum! And who benefits from this
shit but furniture companies and landlords?”
The causes of poverty run deeper than lack of money.
For her, it’s the loss of indigenous family structures
that are built to support, not alienate. She sees the
need to teach poor people to use their knowledge to
become scholars and speak their stories, as well as
look at the outside world for context. “Poor people
get caught up in our notions of what we deserve,”
she says. “For instance, we don’t know that
in Canada and most of Western Europe, they give people
child care.”
Tiny’s trying to put together a new issue of
POOR Magazine for 2008, but they’re still
short 5 grand. Almost all of her income is going to
keep the magazine and website, Poor News Network
(a web clearinghouse for poverty-related news), alive.
“I’m so over it right now, I don’t
think I can handle this crazy-ass life.” She might
complain, but I can tell she’s going to keep going.
When you’ve walked out of hell, you don’t
stop walking.
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